Thursday, July 20, 2017

Observe, Orient, Decide, Act

Today at the end of class coach Phill was discussing a way of seeing called ooda. The idea is to create loops of your own and break loops of others. In my head, the idea of creating loops within loops within loops is normal - I cannot even begin to explain the nuances of my brain, not even to myself, but I'm in a constant diagram of connecting several different things to one another. Like the madness you'd expect to find in an analysts head, I'm not sure whether I seek balance in the chaos of the loops or if the chaos is the balance I need. Now, breaking the loops of others is an interesting concept to me. It's not really a way of thinking I've explored, though to create advantages in life it makes complete sense - out pace people by being in a constant loop ahead, or break down their will to try to keep up in your loops.

If I observe and see an opening, I need to orient myself and then decide whether it's a good thing to act upon. Acting upon that observation requires the other person to then observe what just happened and they need to start their loop anew. If my loop is continuing forward while they're orientating themselves to the first position of my loop and I'm into my second, the pace stays on my side. Though, at least in jiujitsu, being tactful enough to keep your loops from being broken is much easier said than done. People have explosiveness to get themselves out of awful situations that you don't anticipate, people are really strong in weird places, people are cunning, and patient, and will catch you when you do not expect to be caught.
So is it the ability to continue to see loops everywhere you go or is it the ability to not let others who happen to break your loops demoralize you to the point that you can no longer observe situations and start a loop anew?

The more I look at that question the harder it seems to answer. Being demoralized to the point of giving up, and choosing to not observe your situations anymore is a frequent position to be in when the chips are down. It's easy to say, 'yeah, I gave up, it was too hard'. Way too easy. Though I do not wish to live a life of regrets. I have far too many as it is and I'm not even halfway through this life. I'd rather have my loops broken again, and again, and again, instead of not looking for a new one. Again though, easier said than done. In waking life, I've given up far too many times. I've done things I shouldn't have done. I've backed away from things that I should have absolutely done. I've started to do things that I love and let them slip away from my fingers like handfuls of sand. What must we do, as individuals, as groups, as a collective whole - to keep ourselves orientated to the observation which best suits our current situation? How do we know when it feels right to decide and act upon the decision?

To lack feeling is to be dead, but only children act on every feeling they have.

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